Tee up Me vs. Madonna vs. Elvis, Brand New
It's been a month since I last wrote. I've been thinking a lot about that.
When things are going well, the need for writing is less, and it kind of goes on the back burner.
When things aren't going well, the need for writing surfaces. It's a kind of coping mechanism.
Belief
The past month has been good. Especially with work. I've been motivated and passionate in my work. That's a beautiful thing.
The past couple of days have been hard. Some road bumps and friction. Got me down. That's just part of the journey.
Hard to appreciate the good times without the hard times. And working through the hard times is always when you learn the most (growth mindset).
I started working on Revenue Based Financing 3 months ago.
It started as an idealistic vision. A honeymoon period. Where the conceptual framework was a perfect construction. I was fueled by a vision (month one).
Then the rubber hit the road, and it was super challenging. The honeymoon wore off and the hard work started. An uphill climb to figure it all out (month two).
Then I started to see momentum and got super excited about the deal flow that was actually making progress (month three).
And going into month four, it's now time for a second injection of momentum. Dig deep, circle back to everyone I've talked to, find more deals, keep going.
For whatever reason, my energy is low. Looking up this mountain. Struggling to take that first step up the switchbacks.
But it will come to me. I am not phased. I've got it in me to push and succeed. This is part of it.
I'm thankful for perspective. I've been in the professional world for 12 years now. I have a lot of hindsight that can guide me forward. I recognize the patterns. I can identify what's happening. I have felt these feelings many times over the past 12 years.
I don't have a cloud of confusion hanging over me. And for that, I am thankful. That is the realized value of time, growth, and consistency in professional life.
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Four months ago I was a bit lost. I didn't know if what I was doing professionally made sense. I felt lost. I felt that I maybe needed to leave Wefunder.
This new project injected a wave of inspiration that I haven't had since my early days at Kiva. That is special.
For me it comes down to this:
If this works, I will be extremely proud. It will bring me meaning and purpose.
For it to work, it's going to be a fucking grind. Good things don't come easy.
I'm not afraid of hard work.
Especially if the end result is something I know I will be proud of.
This will work. I will succeed. I'm willing to put in the work. Because I believe.